My husband has a large brain tumor.
I'm still in shock and after today's news, I'd really like to just wake up from this hellish nightmare.
I slept like shit last night and got up this morning and left for the hospital once my sister Jen came over to watch the kids. They finally got Pablo into a make-shift room at around 1 am (the hospital is supposedly full to capacity). I got to his room around 10 am and we hung out till they came to get him for another MRI. After that we hung out in his room waiting for the MRI results. A doctor who works with Pablo's neurosurgeon came into the room a few hours later and explained to Pablo that it looks like they'll perform the surgery on Tuesday and he explained the details of what sounded like a pretty routine, most likely benign, brain tumor removal surgery. He said that due to the location of the tumor, the surgery could affect his memory and/or speech. He left and we actually felt quite confident.
Since the surgery wasn't going to happen till Tuesday, Pablo asked if her could go home till then and the doctor said that he could get him a day pass so that he could spend his days at home but he would have to return to the hospital at night to sleep there. If he were to come home and sleep at home, he would have to be re-admitted for the surgery and that involves a whole lot of paperwork, bloodwork and other crap so a day pass just makes things easier (for the hospital).
My parents and aunt and uncle had come to visit around dinnertime and I left with them to go home and be with the kids for a bit before bed.
Then Pablo called.
'The' neurosurgeon had a talk with Pablo a couple hours ago. She said that upon her analysis of the MRI, the tumor had actually spread into the brain and was most likely malignant. The surgery is definitely going to have to be performed by Tuesday the latest and it is going to be a very difficult surgery. The surgery is going to have to be followed by chemotherapy and radiation.
Our hearts sunk and now I am really at a loss for words.
The kids and I are going to pick him up tomorrow morning and we're going to come home and have a wonderful day - together as a family.
Pablo, I love you. More than words can say.