My husband has a large brain tumor.
I'm still in shock and after today's news, I'd really like to just wake up from this hellish nightmare.
It's bad.
I slept like shit last night and got up this morning and left for the hospital once my sister Jen came over to watch the kids. They finally got Pablo into a make-shift room at around 1 am (the hospital is supposedly full to capacity). I got to his room around 10 am and we hung out till they came to get him for another MRI. After that we hung out in his room waiting for the MRI results. A doctor who works with Pablo's neurosurgeon came into the room a few hours later and explained to Pablo that it looks like they'll perform the surgery on Tuesday and he explained the details of what sounded like a pretty routine, most likely benign, brain tumor removal surgery. He said that due to the location of the tumor, the surgery could affect his memory and/or speech. He left and we actually felt quite confident.
Since the surgery wasn't going to happen till Tuesday, Pablo asked if her could go home till then and the doctor said that he could get him a day pass so that he could spend his days at home but he would have to return to the hospital at night to sleep there. If he were to come home and sleep at home, he would have to be re-admitted for the surgery and that involves a whole lot of paperwork, bloodwork and other crap so a day pass just makes things easier (for the hospital).
My parents and aunt and uncle had come to visit around dinnertime and I left with them to go home and be with the kids for a bit before bed.
Then Pablo called.
'The' neurosurgeon had a talk with Pablo a couple hours ago. She said that upon her analysis of the MRI, the tumor had actually spread into the brain and was most likely malignant. The surgery is definitely going to have to be performed by Tuesday the latest and it is going to be a very difficult surgery. The surgery is going to have to be followed by chemotherapy and radiation.
Our hearts sunk and now I am really at a loss for words.
The kids and I are going to pick him up tomorrow morning and we're going to come home and have a wonderful day - together as a family.
Pablo, I love you. More than words can say.
I am keeping your family in my thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeleteOh, Julia. I'm continuing to send good, healing thoughts and prayers your family's way. I hope your day tomorrow is lovely. (And that you can get even a little bit of sleep tonight.)
ReplyDeleteThank you Alexis and Collette.
ReplyDeleteIt's after 10pm here and Isabella is fast asleep next to me in my bed. I really wanted the company and now I think I will join her and hopefully get to sleep fast - hoping Simon sleeps through the night tonight.
I think a family photo shoot is in order for tomorrow. It's been awhile.
Oh Julia. I'm so sorry. That really, really sucks. Your family's in our prayers.
ReplyDeleteI've been reading your blog for quite a while but have never posted.
ReplyDeleteI felt the need to reach out to you in what be must a scary, tiring and emotional time. I am so sorry that you are going through this.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
((((((Julia)))))),
ReplyDeleteI know it's hard ... but, try real hard not to accept the negative news as something that really has to happen.
I belong to BrainTalk Communities. We've prayed together a lot and seen a lot of miracles.
I pray that you and your husband get your own miracle.
Please try to accept as truth that The Universe is watching over your guys and protecting you. You have to BELIEVE that this will all have a positive result.
Bless you all. And especially, Pablo ... fast healing, no pain, and no negative side effects.
Bless you.
Barb
my prayers are with you and your family. xoxox.
ReplyDeleteOh Julia {hugs}. I'll be praying for Pablo to have a speedy recover xx
ReplyDeleteI have only recently started to follow your blog, but wanted to say that my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
ReplyDeleteI enjoy your blog and I am sorry to hear the news. You and your family are in my thoughts. Hope all of you find some peace in all of this.
ReplyDeleteThank you. All of you.
ReplyDeleteI love your blog, adore your kids and your quirky family. I have my own small family and would be shaken to the core by such news. I hope and pray that all goes well with Pablo's surgery and recovery and that your family finds itself whole again very soon.
ReplyDeleteThat's very sweet of you alicia - thank you.
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